So things actually went well at CVC. I scheduled another appointment for next week. A whole bunch of uncomfortable topics were covered but maybe I can arrange it so that I can get my records transferred from VSC. That would help me not have to rehash the crap, ya know? I’m also reading these really great books, It Happened To Me, by Wm Lee Carter. and The Mindfullness and Anxiety Workbook for Anxiety. I am hopeful that these resources, combined with the therapy will help me get back to who I used to be. In order to become a butterfly one must fiercely desire to fly and be willing to give up being a caterpillar. Change is key. This is my goal. complete change of my persona, I don’t like who I am, and that’s not fair, so I should become someone I like, Thereby enabling myself to like others and ot engage them on a wholehearted basis..