I couldn’t sleep last night, I was lost in thoughts of the times we used to spend at the park, at Longacres, and at Zerns. I realized what an empty hole there is now. I know I need to move on, I know this isn’t healthy, but part of me just wants to feel this ache in my soul. I want to remember the way you made me feel as a kid. Yesterday, at the thanksgiving dinner, I started thnking about jumping off your porch into your arms. I remembered how freeing that made me feel, total trust.  These are the things I miss about our relationship. The things I need to find elsewhere. I know Grief takes time and whatnot… but it still stinks.

“and I miss you, and I wish you were here.”