I got to thinking too much tonight. boom, pow. and I was in over my head with thoughts of my mom and suicide and abortion and how these things are inter-related. I wondered how many times she had thought of abortion as a viable option while carrying me, and also if that is why I am so messed up. If my MH is genetic, then maybe the thoughts of suicide or abortion she had were passed to me as a baby. I’ve got no proof, just what I’m pondering tonight…

real world

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