…Just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in…

Definitely sums up how life has been these past months. It’s always tough. There’s nothing simple anymore. I need a break, I implore anyone available to listen to my heart. To hear beyond my words and hear how incredibly broken my life has become. Given these changes and the tumultuous nature of life and the rapids therein, I question the heavens in asking “what next”. I say this not in  a haughty voice, but rather in a small, docile child like voice.

I need to form connections, I need family in my life. I have no one out here. This is not the life I envisioned when you proposed all that time ago. I had pictured a lifetime of happiness, us together… just bliss


But some things will never change.